Drunken Instant Message exchange with an X...

you are so so beautiful.

it makes me hurt inside seeing you there...

wondering...

makes me wonder.

and then the hurt because I have nowhere to put the wondering.

makes me wonder all the 'what-ifs'.

seeing you there.

like that.

you like that-

just you

that you-

despite you.

despite what you say or think.

that breath-taking.

that thing that makes me cry.

right now.

crying because I saw you again.



fuck.



mis-spelling because i can't read while crying with my right eye closed....

beautiful bitch.

always walking away from me as beautiful as that.

In your white sneakers.

your dirty-less white


fucking


sneakers.


my god.

i'm appalled at my spelling.

please read it in the way you know i meant it.

and never share my ignorance.

with

anyone.



please.